But I have promises to keep

May 5, 2023

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From the moment I've listened to this sentence "mujhe afsos krna nhi aata" in the movie, 'Zindagi na milegi dobara', It just got stuck in my head . well, Translation in English: "I don't know how to regret" Just day after yesterday, I was in the Varanasi junction to board my train to my home town Patna, while i was there waiting for my train to arrive, as i had arrived at the station, approx., 1 hour before, so i was playing chess on my phone, and was looking around all the different kinds of people there. I saw a foreigner there, buying a biscuit. And for me it is not unusual, as many foreigners visit Varanasi for exploring the beauty of one of the oldest cities in the world. But it's my habit of meeting new people, especially the foreigners, and i like to talk with them in English. So, i spotted him some 30m away from me standing there, and i thought that he might be with this friends and family. so i thought, that right now, i have approx., 30 minutes left and i have nothing to do, so let's go have some little conversation with him. I went there, with some courage and happened to see that he was indeed all alone, surfing something on his phone I started by introducing him, and then the conversation started, we talked for like until the train arrived, and didn't feel like how quickly the time got empty.

His name was 'steve' and he said that he is 50 years old and he has already travelled in more than 88 countries, and he is visiting Nepal the next day, will be his 89th in his bucket list. But the most shocking for me, was that he mentioned that he didn't have any family. and he is travelling the world all alone. I was like, that must be so hard, and he just started explaining something, but to be honest, most of his English words are not being interpreted by my brain, maybe because i'm not used to listen to this kind of pure native sort of English pronunciation, but to keep on with the fluency, i answered in yes, & ok. But anyways, i'm definitely not going to type the entire conversation, as i do not like that. But the learning from him was is very valuable. one thing i wanna mention, is that, he said that we all of us has this limited amount of time. and he is having only 20 yrs., of life left, just like how 'Nas Daily' says about, how he lives his life. This is just so wonderful experience for me. Yes, i must say that the foreigners who travels the world, indeed have so much money, okay so that's a different side of this story, but they also have so much open perspective for life. During the middle of our conversation, the train arrived and i had to go, so as i often say, "nice to talk to you" at the end of the conversation., so he as had some biscuits and he opened his bag and said to me to take some biscuits, i don't know what to do, but i picked one, he said to pick some more and i picked the another one, indicating that i already have 2 , but then he himself, picked, some 3-4 more, and handed over to me. Saying that you gonna need this in the train. Haha, that was so awesome. What i really regret is that , i should have taken atleast, 1 selfie with him. while there was so much crowd in the train and people were coming in and out , so i kept on thinking that i should take a photo with him, so i approached there back , and saw he was not there, and i quickly ran back and got inside the train. okay, so you might think, that this is like very childish, either you should have taken the photo, but if not just move on man, i agree, and i also explain this to myself. Actually, one thing i feel as an introverted person, i don't really like making too many friends and talking with many people. But once i start to feel comfortable with some people. like in terms of having really nice conversation. Like really. so i want to spend some more time with them.

As the title says that " mujhe afsos krna nhi aata", it is not always true sometimes, but from this time, i will definitely try my best, to never feel this regret of a thing. I have always cherished this dream of taking my family , especially for my little grandma, to the Iceland and we'll see Northern Lights together. I really wanna achieve this. There is some much more inside of me and inside of all of us. There is so many orphan kids out there in this world, some has lost his/her mom or dad or both. This is definitely not their fault , when you come to know that, they are only 14 or like while giving birth to them, the brave mommy died. So, the plan is to give a better life to every single kid to this planet. Let me fix this . when some beloved of yours falls sick, and you happen to visit the hospital , stay there and pray for their health. you start to notice that the life outside the hospital went really fast and you'll feel like being stuck there helplessly. For all the cancer patients who suffer and like for everyone, when you talk to them and spend time with them, you start to feel grateful about your life, no matter how much broken you're. So, why not appreciate this from this moment only. This life is really very precious. And for every moment that i'm alive i wanna live it. I don't know what happens after death, even though we only pray for our loved ones. I am gonna make every dream of mine come true, in this little , unpredictable life only. I don't wanna keep any regrets . It's better to try, success or failure is not in my hand, i only wanna make sure that i'm giving my best shot, rather than not getting started.